One week

I've tried to post this a dozen times. I even saved the contents because I don't have an hour to just sit down and write my thoughts without someone interrupting me. I mean, I can't take a shit alone, what makes you think I can blog? But for some reason it got deleted or never saved the original blog

So this is long overdue. Ama is now two weeks old. I wanted to share my labor story because I went through war with my uterus and I beat that bitch. But again, time people, time. I think I'll write it at 4 am when she wakes up for a feed. Let's see how my brain works then.

I swear my brain is always in a fog. Like I'm a walking zombie. I try and get up, shower and wake myself up but if I'm stuck in the house, forgetaboutit, I'll knock out. Never fails.

My diet consist of whatever is leftover in the fridge. Hopefully nothing is expired. Although I had some cheese..... Melted cheese..... For breakfast and I got chorros. I didn't check the expiration. Hopefully diarrhea is the worse thing that will occur.

What does life with 2 kids feel like?
HELL...
Maya has so much energy and it makes me so sad that I can't really entertain her as well. Yesterday we spent the afternoon drawing on the floor of the back yard with chalk while I had her cry baby sister in the ergo. It was really hard to be on the floor with a newborn so we came in, I set up camp in our living room. Snacks, coloring book, crayons, and my laptop that I have a few movies from my dear friend Marie, to entertain her. We watched snow white. That bitch snow white is boring and too perfect. She got bored so I changed it to toy story. We then sat on the rocking chair and continued watching toy story together. It was nice to be able to give her my attention. Which in turn made me sad because I love her. She's my lil best friend. And I feel like she's being pushed away.

My mom took her today to her house and she was all smiles and happiness. She then asked me, "mami, do you love me?" Ugh it took every ounce of me to not cry and say that of course I do. I love my vampire. I love her with all my heart and life is just so perfect with her in it.

I know,this isn't my usual update. More sappy than complaining but the complaints will come. For now, I want to remind myself that I truly love my lil Maya and I hope, til my last dying breath, she knows how amazing she is to me.